I came home Wednesday night and slept until 11:30am. Yes, 11:30!! Fortunately the kids were at Joy School and then with Melissa until Adam picked them up after work. I spent most of the day laying in bed watching "Lie to Me" on Netflix and alternating Zofran and Ativan for the nausea. The day feels like a blur! And the craziest part of this all is everything LOOKS like a blur! My eyesight is actually fuzzy. And maybe it's my head feeling a lot of pressure, but it's hard to focus my eyes. Lovely chemo.
Today Adam and I decided to give the kids a break and just let them watch TV and hang out all day while I laid around the house with them. They've been missing me and had a hard time being at different people's houses everyday. And now they're going stir crazy! Adam set them up with breakfast and a movie before he went off to work and I was able to sleep in until 10:30 before Evan came in and jumped on me! We've spent the rest of the day putting on makeup (yes, all three of us), opening a package from my mom (and eating the chocolate chip cookies in it), and watching silly cartoons. It's been an incredibly lazy day but I feel exhausted!
I've been feeling extremely fatigued- as in, walk up the stairs and have to sit down to rest at the top. Nausea, it's manageable but it's there. Fuzzy head and headache. And there's a film covering my mouth and lips, yeah, it grosses me out too! But you can't see it, I can just feel it. Supposedly that's from the chemo killing off the fast growing cells and can cause mouth sores so I'm trying not to brush too hard or eat stuff that will hurt my mouth, like pineapple. And food is gross. I think I've said this before, WATER is gross. Is that weird or what?? It tastes so bad, but I know I need to drink it to flush out all the chemo, but every time I drink it I feel a little sick. Awesome.
I start Neupogen shots today to start building my neutrophils so I don't get infections and I am taking 3 different pills to keep away viruses, fungi, and something else I can't remember right now... I've also got three different kinds of anti-nausea pills, sleeping pills, and a light pain killer for when the Neupogen shots start causing bone pain. Is it a wonder I feel a little fuzzy??
I hope I'm not too depressing!! I want to list my side effects of the chemo both for my own reference and anyone else going through this regimen but hate feeling like I'm depressing anyone who is reading this. Sorry if you're depressed!! :)
I've loved all the emails, calls, texts, visits, and the package getting out of chemo! It's great to know people are caring for me and my family!