tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10193597328667430842024-03-13T12:03:27.318-04:00Tessa's Cancer Journey #3Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01518249977551009744noreply@blogger.comBlogger53125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1019359732866743084.post-6144880494243894132014-02-08T16:50:00.000-05:002014-02-08T16:50:26.686-05:00Another Scan, Another Reprieve!On Monday I received results from my latest PetCT scan... Adam and I breathed a HUGE sigh of relief! "Recurrence of Lymphoma not suggested." Doesn't sound exciting the way it was written, but of course it IS! Wouldn't it be funny though, if you were a scan reader to put in there, "Have a party, your body is no longer glowing with radioactive tumors!" or, "All that chemo you went through may cause a secondary cancer, but TODAY IS NOT THAT DAY!!" or even a simple, "No cancer detected. Hooray!" At least I think it would be quite hilarious, until you got fired of course :) <div>
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I also received a booster flu shot and the go ahead to have surgery the next day to remove my gallbladder :( I have been doing a lot of research on gallstones and having your gallbladder removed- it appears that many people who have undergone chemotherapy and specifically a bone marrow transplant get the stones and eventually need theirs out. I've known that I had a lot of gallstones for about a year now but because it only bothered me occasionally it was suggested I leave it alone until if/when it started bothering me. Well, it started bothering me as can be guessed! Doctors said it wasn't a problem to have it out so we went ahead with the 7:30 am surgery on Tuesday. </div>
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About 6 months ago I started noticing my gallbladder aching under my right rib pretty constantly and would occasionally have a slight "gallbladder attack" after eating a particularly heavy or high fat meal (think bacon or those super cheap and super delicious Totino's pizzas that probably cause cancer from all the crap they put in them...). Then two weeks ago I indulged in another Totino's pizza slathered in delicious homemade ranch and I was in heaven... UNTIL... About two hours later when my right ribcage and shoulder were in so much pain I couldn't get comfortable in bed and absolutely could not sleep even after taking three 5mg Ambien! That's crazy- when one usually knocks me out cold. So of course I started reading on the net about all the problems gallstones can create and how one can end up in the emergency room getting emergency surgery... And I called my general practitioner in the morning. Within a week I had the surgery scheduled and just needed results from my PetCT and the ok from my docs! </div>
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Let me tell you though, I was worried SICK the pain in my right shoulder blade and front right chest was going to be tumors growing instead of gallbladder problems. For 3 months I've been unable to sleep on my right side due to the pain in my upper right quadrant and to the nodule on my thyroid that is just HUGE and feels like it's cutting off blood flow to my face if I'm not laying just right. I have been constantly observing my body to notice any "B Symptoms" of cancer, like night sweats or slight fevers as I was getting the last two times cancer presented itself. Fortunately I never noticed anything like those symptoms so I held off calling the docs. Until the attack of course :) </div>
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Now it's been 4 days since the gallbladder removal and I've got ZERO pain in my shoulder and even slept on my right side two nights since! How exciting :) I know, it sounds so dumb, but I was going crazy only being able to sleep on the left side! And my eye wrinkles were getting really bad on that left eye too :) It's true. Wrinkles have already improved since sleeping on my back and switching sides the last four nights. I never knew how harmful ones sleep habits could be to face wrinkles! But that's a tangent isn't it? I was getting to how the recovery from surgery has been; and it's about how I expected. Lots of sleep, pain in the belly, and cramping/grumbling constantly but at it's worst after eating anything. And another aside? Why not; the food I've received has been AMAZING!! I feel so spoiled- my family and friends have really taken care of me these last few days by bringing food for us and taking the kids a bit to play. It's so uplifting to see how much people care by the things they do after a surgery! Or after a baby, or chemo, or a death in the family- some good things can come from tough times that's for sure (though of course a baby is not as tough as the others :) </div>
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Back to my oncology appointment at Huntsman (Dr. Hildebrandt is my doc btw, I'd recommend him to ANYONE, he has really been wonderful), my doc said he wants to see me in another two months for a checkup and additional vaccinations but I don't have to have another PetCT scan for 6 months!! This will be the first time I've gone longer than three months without a scan since fall of 2010! Is that crazy or what? I do wonder how many scans a body can go through without causing extra problems from all that radiation... Oh well, I guess the good outweighs the bad, until the balance tips? Whatever, I have other things to have anxiety over, I can push that topic out of my mind :) </div>
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I'm looking forward to the next couple months without having to drive to SLC for any appointments! Yay! As always, thank you for your continued support and following of my Cancer Journey- It feels great to share it with others and know there are those that can find this blog to hopefully help with their journeys. It's not fun it's true, but it's sure a lot more bearable with support! Love to all~</div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01518249977551009744noreply@blogger.com13tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1019359732866743084.post-50459070950910568382014-01-05T15:38:00.004-05:002014-01-07T00:43:43.520-05:00And The Results Are In...<u><b>Benign</b></u>: Music to anyone's ears, but particularly to a 3 time cancer survivor undergoing her 6th biopsy! <br />
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My doc told me he'd call me with results anywhere from 3-7 days later. On the off chance the results were in the computer before then, I checked my chart online… I want to be shocked that I could read my results before they were given to me but I'm too happy the results were exactly what I wanted to see :) </div>
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I went down to Huntsman on Thursday for the biopsy- I asked my doc if I could get a pic of him holding the giant needle next to my neck while I looked scared over at him… He made me repeat myself several times then said, "That is perhaps the oddest request I've ever heard." I got a good laugh out of it but he still seemed confused at why I'd want it :) He didn't want to be in the blog though, and was very hesitant about me even seeing the needle before the biopsy until I told him I'd already seen it during my first biopsy. Kinda funny. So The point is, I don't have very funny pics for your enjoyment, but I do at least have a picture of the biopsy :). <br />
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01518249977551009744noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1019359732866743084.post-50383388559400037582013-12-19T18:23:00.001-05:002013-12-19T18:23:44.058-05:00Merry Christmas! It's a beautiful snowy day I've been enjoying with my family at home. I was supposed to travel to SLC for a thyroid needle-biopsy and as seems to happen way too often, a snowstorm got in the way so I've had to cancel! <span class="”fullpost”"></span><br />
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In October I was able to go through my one year testing post BMT. All tests came back looking great, I even received the compliment from my doc that the blood results were perfect; better than his would be even! A nice compliment to hear for sure! </div>
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The only speed bump I hit was in my PetCT- the two nodules on my thyroid had grown instead of shrinking, and there was the beginning of a third nodule/bump/cyst/lumpy thingy that was suggested I get biopsied. Of course, I've run into rescheduling problems, a doctor quitting and having to schedule with a new doctor, and now a snowstorm, so the biopsy is scheduled for January 2nd. </div>
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I'm a little grumpy about the subject of my thyroid… Back in January I came down with a light case of GVHD and fatigue (yeah, that's only maybe two or three posts back… sorry!), I was put on prednisone and over the following 6-9 months I gained FORTY FIVE pounds, and had about zero energy even with the steroids, and continued to have joint pain. I was told repeatedly that I shouldn't have joint pain, the weight gain was normal, and I just had to wait until I went off of prednisone. I was also criminalized by several doctors who thought I was abusing pain medication because I "shouldn't" have pain in my joints. That's a long story though, and one I didn't want to tell because I was angry, and therefor caused a reticence to post an update. Well guess what?? As soon as we found out I was very much hypothyroid and I started Levothyroxine (thyroid replacement hormone) I lost over 15 pounds in 2 months and all joint pain vanished, and I had energy! I was able to quit my "abuse" of medication almost overnight! Funny that. And now we come to the BUT. There's always a "but," right?? I really really hate the "but." After almost two months of thyroid replacement hormone I started having crazy anxiety, sweating, fatigue, and other generalized craziness. I can't even take 1/2 of the smallest dose of Levothyroxine without feeling all these symptoms of HYPERthyroidism. Even though my blood levels say normal and my doc told me today over the phone that there's no way the medication is causing this and it's probably an underlying condition I need to get checked out. Huh- interesting then that when I don't take the meds I don't feel crazy, but (and there's that dang word again!! I feel like I should be able to make some childish joke here about buts and butts… BUT I can't think of anything witty at the moment!) And where was I? Yes, BUT, when I do take my medication I feel crazy all over again- crippling crazy. So… back at square one I guess. Oh yeah, the joint pain and fatigue are back too; I've only been off the replacement hormone for a week! </div>
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I feel terrible posting all whiney stuff on here. And I know, I'll have some people thinking I should be able to tell it like it is, right? Among others thinking I'm alive aren't I, so shouldn't I be happy about that?? Or maybe that's me getting down on myself… I'm a positive person though, I really dislike being angry, feeling helpless, and being depressed about the never-ending crap. Yes, crap. It's kind of an all-inclusive word. Crap I get from others who think I look fine, I don't have cancer, so why am I so flaky?? Crap around the house- I never was a good housekeeper, and now my housekeeping is non-existent. Crappy motherhood- I don't have my kids signed up for anything other than school because it's too difficult to do anything other than shower and get through the day in a haze. I'm crap for a wife too- sorry Honey, I know you hate hearing me "sell myself short," but we both know it's true! It's not like Adam isn't busy enough with a relatively new job he's tackling daily- it's not much help to have to do everything around the house too! Do you know our cars still have New Jersey plates on them??? It's been a whole year! And because the cars are in my name, the plates just haven't been changed. Well this is embarrassing… BUT, whatever! Yes, I'm bringing back the "Whatever!" with a big W!</div>
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It's actually therapeutic to write all this out. I should probably go back and delete that last paragraph… BUT I won't :) That's the kind of behind-the-scenes stuff most people with serious illnesses go through I think. I really truly am happy to have this extended lease on life, and grateful to be able to spend everyday with my beautiful family. I look around me and see this amazing valley I live in- the mountains, the people, the small towns… And I'm grateful for it all. BUT, I can always hope for better! </div>
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I'm posting a simple update for now, just to note where I'm at in the post-BMT process. Graft-vs-Host Disease (GVHD) is the main issue I grapple with currently, since we're not worried about treating cancer at the moment. I have GVHD mainly in my eyes and joints, as well as a nice case of chronic fatigue that often accompanies GVHD. In large part that's why I've kept from posting too often, I have had to cut out a lot of things in my life just to have some energy during the day to spend with my family! I've even had to cut out housecleaning for the most part- you should see the state of my messy home... On second thought, no, you shouldn't! :) </div>
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I'm happy to be here, to spend time every day with my kids and my husband, and be seeing my extended family as often as possible. Utah is amazing in the spring and summer, we're enjoying the outdoors every day, and enjoying the time we have together, while we have it. Life is beautiful. </div>
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01518249977551009744noreply@blogger.com11tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1019359732866743084.post-48160055215853845932012-12-02T02:09:00.001-05:002013-01-11T16:30:11.351-05:00I'm HOME, & I Can Breathe!! <table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; text-align: center;"><tbody>
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And that's the best way to describe it! I'm HOME. Home in Utah, I feel at home with my new team of docs at the Huntsman Center, we've rented a wonderfully perfect home in Logan where even without our possessions it already feels like HOME. I'm at home sleeping in my parent's basement on a blow up mattress until said possessions make it here next week. And when Adam finally makes it out here for good in two weeks, we will really be HOME!! What a happy, relaxing thing to experience! And though I'm busy running everywhere doing a ton just to keep up, I'm happier. People are nicer. Life is slower, and more enjoyed. My kids are excited every day because every day is "THE BEST DAY EVER!!! " for both of them! It's kind of contagious! (As are colds, EVERY time we come home as the kids are evidence of, being in the middle of their first cold since being HOME). I breathe easier having found an amazing place to live (yes Jersey friends, gonna rub it in just a bit) we have 4 bedrooms Plus an office (that's right, extra space for visitors whenever you come to Logan!), 2 living rooms, each with a fireplace, and a big backyard with a "secret garden" hidden by bushes and overgrown with weeds, but it has a hidden playhouse in it the kids are in love with!! And let's be honest, so am I! :)<br />
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Did I get a little sidetracked?? Sorry!! My Huntsman Center visit was amazing, I'm very impressed and looking forward to continuing my treatment through them. Dr. Boyer seems to be nice, I'll try for pics next time. The location itself was AMAZING- both take-your-breath-away beautiful and extremely easy to use and navigate through! Adam and I loved sitting in ONE room and having everyone come to us, rather than traipsing from hospital to cancer center to pharmacy to medical imaging to lab and bag to cancer center.... Yeah, those days could get long!!!<br />
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The Plan: My new docs are cutting back my immunosuppressants every two weeks to initiate some GVHD in the hopes I will also experience some GVT (Graft Versus Tumor). I know I've explained most of this before, but it never hurts to explain again right??? I am currently on 1 milligram Prograf in the morning and a 1/2 milligram in the evening. On Tuesday I should be going down to 1/2 and 1/2. So far... no GVHD- not the best sign, we want a little to know the graft is also killing any cancer cells!! As for how I feel... Mentally: Great!!! Physically: well, I've got a lot of body aches, hand and feet aches, and a lot of burning in my lymph system in my neck and a sore throat. Could be better, could be worse.<br />
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01518249977551009744noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1019359732866743084.post-68676424771907214012012-11-08T11:05:00.000-05:002012-11-08T11:05:24.630-05:00PETScan Results: Not Bad, Not Good Either...So... Kind of a disappointing visit to the cancer center yesterday. I read my scan results and there is small growth (as in, biggest "target lesion" growth was 3 millimeters, not big at all) in 3 target areas, steady in one, and reduction in one (2 millimeters). The most worrisome part is my thymus gland- it's grown quite a bit, however, I've had a biopsy done there and quite possibly have some scar tissue and/or reaction in the thymus and is swollen/growing and NOT cancerous. It's also not bright at all in the SUV brightness of PETscans, and none of the target lesions are bright enough SUV ("yet," always implied, but never said) to predict a rebound of cancer. Hmm... So far you've hear the Not Good part of the appointment. <span class="”fullpost”"></span><br />
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The Not Bad: Doctors were very positive and said they see this kind of thing all the time, and are going to cut back quite a bit on the immunosuppressants to let Zach's immune system really kick in and get some Graft vs. Tumor effect to shrink these babies once and for all! Since I've not had any Graft vs Host Disease (GVHD) during the first 100 days, they say I could very likely get some now that we're cutting back. It's also not supposed to be a good sign that I have NOT had GVHD yet. From what I've read, a LITTLE GVHD during the first 100 days is a great sign that the transplant will attack any cancerous cells that might be left over. </div>
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Next scan is in 4 weeks- I'll be in SLC getting that scan done and getting to know all of my new doctor team there. I'll miss everyone at JTCC- they've been wonderful, and I'd recommend them to anyone with Hodgkin's! I need to get baking though for my last appointment on Monday- I promised them all some of my famous "Best Sugar Cookies Ever" in little heart shapes with pink frosting :) </div>
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6/11: Went in to get a CBC (complete blood count) and heard the word REMISSION for the third time. Dr. Mato wasn't supposed to see me but he came in to deliver the good news himself. I spend a couple hours speaking with Carolanne, my transplant manager, to go over possible scenarios and timelines of transplant (if/then sort of things, and tons of them). It was this day I found out I needed to fly Zack in on Sunday for his appointments on the 18th. I hate last minute things like that, especially because it ended up costing double what a planned flight would have cost! <br />
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6/12: Received an awesome Reiki massage (including foot zoning, acupressure, and other fun massage-like things) from <a href="http://www.oldworldwonder.com/" target="_blank">Anca Dumitrescu</a> that is being paid for by my amazing Mother-In-Law Anne just to help me get through some of the aches and pains of chemo. Looking forward to the next one!<br />
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The same day on the 18th I met with Dr. Mato to get my CBC results and plan the next chemo. He explained to me that my white blood counts were low so I needed some more Nuepogen over the next 3 days to prep me for more chemo on Friday. I was so happy I was able to "suggest" Hyper CVAD A again because we could have gone for EPOCH which is longer AND I would have had to get a PICC line in my arm- no thanks!! So I was happy about that, but have been extremely UNHAPPY with (could it be my case manager again???) the scheduling of Zack's visit to NIH in Maryland to have his TH2 cells drawn as part of the study. Had someone scheduled him in good time, I would not be needing this extra chemo at all and would be going directly to transplant. As it is, I can't wait 6 weeks of not having chemo before the transplant because, though I'm technically in remission, 6 weeks is long enough for the cancer to start growing again. So here I am, back in the hospital. <br />
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6/19-20: We spent these two days filming for a documentary! Crazy huh? We have been working with a director out of Utah who is doing a documentary based on serious illnesses and the different ways people react to them. She's addressing faith, or lack thereof, and the different taboos some people face- like willingness or unwillingness to talk about death or even the disease itself. It was a fun couple of days, though long and it's hard to "act natural" with a big camera and boom mike overhead! Funniest part though was Beth, the director, asking Mykelle if she sometimes prays for her Mommy. Mykelle's answer, "Yes I do, I pray that she won't be angry with me." We had a very good laugh at the unexpected turn of that answer :) Then, oddly enough, a wild turkey flew in front of the camera right overhead to the next yard. Yes, ODD. <br />
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6/21: Zack met with the transplant doctor and learned more of what he'll be facing for the actual transplant while I met with Dr. Mato for a CBC to see if I was clear for chemo the next day. Unfortunately, I ALSO had to have another bone marrow biopsy!! NOOOOOO! The last one I had did not go over so well so I was nervous about this one. It actually turned out much better than the last one, but it still was painful and not too fun! Plus Dr. Mato wouldn't let me film it... Not sure why, just camera shy I guess. But in case you want to see one done again- here's the <a href="http://tessascancerjourney2.blogspot.com/2010/11/warning-bone-marrow-biopsy-video.html" target="_blank">last one on video from Dr. Goy in 2010</a>. Dr. Mato was much more gentle and made the experience a little less traumatic. <br />
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Keep the prayers coming our way! Lots of love!</div>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01518249977551009744noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1019359732866743084.post-82106349229357909892012-05-09T13:55:00.001-04:002012-05-09T13:55:13.953-04:00Color For Tessa- Thank You Cache Valley!!<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Saturday the 28th of April was absolutely one of the best days of my life! My USU Ambassador friends threw a fundraising party for me and my family in Cache Valley and it was AMAZING! My friends contacted me to let me know they wanted to do the event on my family's behalf and just needed my permission. It was incredible how everything came together with only a month of preparation! <span class="”fullpost”"></span><br />
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The event was called "<a href="http://www.usu.edu/colorfortessa/" target="_blank">Color For Tessa</a>" and was so creative and had such a great feeling about it. It started with a "Splash of Color 5K" and 1 mile kid's run where people were splashed with powdered color during and after the race. SO FUN!! Afterward, race participants and anybody who wanted to were invited to a "COLOR Festival" that included music, food, a silent auction, raffle prizes, games for the kids, and pony and train rides, as well as the baby animals at the American West Heritage Center. In the evening there was a "COLORS Concert" put on by the band COLORS!! I couldn't believe all of the fun things planned and put together on such short notice!<br />
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I arrived at the AWHC at 8am and didn't sit down until I was in the car leaving the party at 3pm! I had one of the best times of my life!! It was like a combination family, high school, and college reunion! I saw so many old friends and family I hadn't seen in years. Plus I met a lot of new friends too! <br />
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I don't know how to thank everyone appropriately, but I and my family are incredibly grateful to everyone that helped make the day a success. The feeling of love and peace I felt all day was overwhelming and something I will never forget. It will help me get through the tough days coming up when I recall this special day. <br />
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I am so very grateful to the people who organized this even and all of the individuals who donated auction and raffle gifts, time, money and talents. There were many businesses that donated gifts and services that were wonderful!! And the Colors band coming together for a concert for ME!! So cool! Cache Valley is a community I'm proud to claim and call my own. Thank you so much for all that was done and continues to be done on my behalf. I am and will be forever grateful to all who made Color for Tessa so wonderful and hope to to pay forward the love and goodness shown to me. Thank you!<br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">The good news?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I
didn’t have to have any chemo this morning!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>The even better news??<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I’m going
to be feeling great for this next week’s trip to Utah!!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And the BEST news???? My kids get to come
with me!!!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We are on the plane as I
write!<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">Though today has been a little hectic (it’s 10pm and I still
have 6 hours to go before I can get to bed) everything has come together
surprisingly well!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Initially I was
planning on flying out alone for Saturday’s big Hoorah- the really amazing,
blow-me-away event my USU Ambassador friends are putting on for me and my
family, “Colors for Tessa.”<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My super
awesome friends were able to get a plane ticket from Jet Blue donated!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>After enjoying all the fun this Saturday I was
going to relax at my parent’s home for a week while I recuperated from chemo
effects.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Then, when I found out I wasn’t
even going to get chemo today to need recuperating, my dear friend Natalie went
into overdrive and arranged two more donated tickets for my kids!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Isn’t that amazing?!?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Thank you Nat and thank you Jet Blue!!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I’m seriously overwhelmed with the goodness
of people and so grateful for everyone’s generosity!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">It was a little crazy getting those last two tickets all
arranged…<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was packed and ready to
leave the house by 4:00, BUT was still on the phone getting details and unsure of
whether my kids could even come!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So,
Adam threw some kid’s clothes in a small piece of luggage and we jumped in the
car at 4:20 while I was on the phone with Jet Blue.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>20 minutes later we had the tickets set and
the three of us were heading to Utah!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Adam and I decided to wait to tell Mykee and Evan they were coming with
me until we got out at the airport and could film them being sad and saying
goodbye to me. Then we would give in and film their excitement – we thought it
would be fun!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Unfortunately traffic was
a beast and a drive that would only take 1 hour with no delays took 3 ½
hours!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So we weren’t going to have time
to film at the airport and the kids were starting to throw fits from being
cooped up for so long in the car.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So we
sprang the good news on them while we were driving! </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">Mykelle and Evan have been ecstatic knowing they get to see
ALL of their grandparents and ALL of their cousins over the next week!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And even their newest cousin, Baby Mason, who
was born last week on Mykelle’s birthday!!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">The timing of this trip really couldn’t be better!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I’ve been looking forward to this week for
the past month and can’t wait to see everyone.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>It’s really going to be so awesome and the only thing that would make it
better would be if Adam could be with us too <span style="font-family: Wingdings; mso-ascii-font-family: Cambria; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-char-type: symbol; mso-hansi-font-family: Cambria; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-symbol-font-family: Wingdings;"><span style="mso-char-type: symbol; mso-symbol-font-family: Wingdings;">L</span></span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The kids were sad to say goodbye at the
airport and blew him lots of kisses but were still too excited at the prospect
of going to Utah to throw a fit (thankfully!).<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Adam would have LOVED to come and wishes he could enjoy Saturday and see
everyone but he really needs to be at work- especially since it’s finals week where he works!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>We’ll miss him a ton and I’m sure he’ll miss us, but I bet he loves
getting his work done while we’re not there to distract him <span style="font-family: Wingdings; mso-ascii-font-family: Cambria; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-char-type: symbol; mso-hansi-font-family: Cambria; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-symbol-font-family: Wingdings;"><span style="mso-char-type: symbol; mso-symbol-font-family: Wingdings;">J</span></span><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">Even though I’m super excited about heading to Utah and I
don’t want to dwell on the not-so-good news I figure I should cover those
details anyway.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So here it is:<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You remember that miracle drug Adcetris (Brentuximab
Vedotin or SGN 35) that I went on and on about?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Well, as you probably guessed, it’s not a miracle for me!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I’m in that small percentage- 25% of people for whom the drug doesn’t
work.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Dang.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s not a huge surprise, but it’s
disappointing all the same.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>From the scan results it looks like Adcetris
kept most of the tumors from growing but they didn’t shrink much and in one
area the tumor actually grew a little.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">Fortunately there are other options.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And as Doc Mato put it, we were hopeful the
“easy” drug would work, but I can still go the more difficult route.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Which is called, Hyper CVAD A.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I will be heading into the hospital on Sunday
the 6<sup>th</sup> of May for inpatient chemo over 5 days.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I hate inpatient chemo.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am going to try to figure out a way to take
my Play Station 3 into the hospital so I don’t get too bored! <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">The new chemo has all the traditional chemo side effects,
including losing my hair!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I will go
through two cycles, three weeks apart, followed by another PET/CT scan to see
if it’s working.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s supposedly very
similar to ICE which I had during Cancer Fight #2.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>If I’m in remission after two cycles I’ll
proceed to transplant, if not in remission but the chemo is working I’ll do
another cycle or two in the hope of achieving full remission.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>If it’s NOT working then we’ll try a
different option, of which there are supposedly 5 or so more to try, if need be.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Doc Mato was of course very optimistic and
because the tumors have generally responded well to stronger chemo he thinks
this one will work.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>If things work out I
will be going through the transplant in 3 months.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Wow, a lot of “if’s” in this paragraph
huh?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I wish I could give Zack a more
definite time frame for the transplant so he could plan his life a little
better!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Sorry Zack! </span><o:p></o:p></div>
<!--EndFragment--><span class="”fullpost”"></span>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01518249977551009744noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1019359732866743084.post-87202407258700613792012-04-10T15:42:00.001-04:002012-04-12T16:16:56.851-04:00Cancer Does Suck, BUT...... But, the loving support sent my way has been AMAZING! Adam and I are continually astounded at the love and generosity of our neighbor (whether here in NJ or across the country). We have received so much support from so many people... it's helped keep our hearts full and our minds positive when it would be so easy to wallow in negativity. <br />
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<tr><td style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-0c5C80NHSLs/T4SJpUHzv4I/AAAAAAAAB9s/bu-hotLyDPo/s1600/IMG_7162.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;"><img border="0" height="426" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-0c5C80NHSLs/T4SJpUHzv4I/AAAAAAAAB9s/bu-hotLyDPo/s640/IMG_7162.JPG" width="640" /></a></td></tr>
<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">My friend Adelee sent me these hats and the blanket made by her company <a href="http://www.aandcembroidery.com/" target="_blank">A&C Embroidery</a>. <br />
The hats say "Cancer Sucks" on them! Aren't they great?? It was awesome to receive this package from her and to know she'd spent time making these things for us. Evan just HAD to sleep with the "Family Love Blanket" that night! </td></tr>
</tbody></table><div><div>I am grateful to all of you out there who've read this blog and offered up a prayer or even a positive thought. I'm thankful for all the letters, emails, and messages of encouragement and love we've received. I'm overwhelmed by the steady influx of offers for babysitting, meals, house cleaning, massages, ladies nights, and the list goes on! The assistance and reinforcement we receive on a daily basis helps our family more than can be imagined! I'm continually astounded by the goodness being shown to us and am looking forward to someday being able to pay it forward to others. </div><div><br />
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;"> A basket of Easter/Get Well goodies from my friend Chelley and her ENTIRE family... And by "entire" I mean everyone! I received some of the sweetest drawings and letters from some of her nieces and nephews and/or cousins... I couldn't keep track of how everyone was related :) It even had stuff for Mykelle and Evan it! So thoughtful!</td></tr>
</tbody></table><div>To everyone who is helping us through this journey, the words seem insufficient but I offer them anyway, THANK YOU!</div></div>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01518249977551009744noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1019359732866743084.post-53736158144937037982012-04-10T15:06:00.000-04:002012-04-10T15:06:59.682-04:00Adcetris Chemo Treatment #3!Number three is DOWN! I'm starting to feel better but there's some lingering nausea and headache still. I even tried to take it super easy this weekend just to see if it would make a difference in the speed of recovery since last treatment I was doing a ton with visitors. It didn't. So now I know, it doesn't matter whether I rest or not! Hear that MOM?? Don't get mad at me when I'm not laying in bed watching TV and eating bon-bons!! :) <div><br />
</div><div>I do have a new side effect to add to the list- peripheral neuropathy! Tingling of the hands and feet. It's not very strong and really kicked in the day after treatment but it's weird. It's like my hands and feet are both half asleep so they're tingly, but not all the way pins and needles. I hear it can get really bad but fortunately haven't experienced it too much. <br />
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</div><div>The cancer center visit itself went really well. I was able to drop the kids off a little early to their preschool at Danae's house and go with Adam. We were in to see the doctor in good time and sent off to the infusion room for chemo where I had one of my favorite nurses helping me. I had some good friends stop by to chat while I was getting the infusion, Pat and Dennis. Dennis received a transplant the same time I did in February of last year. It's been nice to keep in touch with him and his wife over the last year to talk through our different rough spots with each other, since we each knew what the other had been through. We had a great time talking with them before they had to leave for their own appointment. </div><div><br />
</div><div>I was finished before I knew it and on our way to Arby's for the traditional lunch! But we forgot to take pictures for my blog entry before leaving the center so Adam snapped a couple of the joy of LEAVING after chemo...</div><div><br />
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<tr><td style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-QHuYh2e1V0o/T4R_3gyd_dI/AAAAAAAAB9Y/Js6vAlHW470/s1600/S5000283.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;"><img border="0" height="300" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-QHuYh2e1V0o/T4R_3gyd_dI/AAAAAAAAB9Y/Js6vAlHW470/s400/S5000283.JPG" width="400" /></a></td></tr>
<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">Jumping for JOY? Adam made me do it...</td></tr>
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<tr><td style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-jF0qRmLzdh4/T4R_9UePJ4I/AAAAAAAAB9g/ofdjvRT4qcU/s1600/S5000285.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;"><img border="0" height="480" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-jF0qRmLzdh4/T4R_9UePJ4I/AAAAAAAAB9g/ofdjvRT4qcU/s640/S5000285.JPG" width="640" /></a></td></tr>
<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">Can you see me back there?? Adam wanted to illustrate just how hypocritical I can be... I parked forever away <br />
from the entrance even though there were spots available closer... Something I've been known to tease him about <br />
from time to time!</td></tr>
</tbody></table><div>I heard a lot more from the bone marrow transplant trial I'm getting into. Zack and I have to sign our lives away on a million papers to do it but it will all be worth it in the end! I now have a better idea of what will be the order of events and what the events will entail, but of course have no idea of the WHEN. I hate that part!! How can I plan sitters for the kids when I don't have a time frame? I may even have to do up to THREE inpatient 5 day chemo treatments (called EPOCH) to bring my immune system down before the transplant but I was told I wouldn't know until 48 hours before going in. Each time I go in for that would push back the transplant by 3 weeks. And this is all assuming I'll be in remission soon from the chemo I'm getting now! SOOO, I basically have no time frame whatsoever. That's not true... I'd say I will be getting a transplant sometime this year, hopefully during the summer! </div><div><br />
</div><div>I was excited to get the OK from the doc to travel to Utah for the cool <a href="http://www.usu.edu/colorfortessa/" target="_blank">fundraiser</a> happening on the 28th that my awesome USU Ambassador friends are putting together. I am so looking forward to seeing friends and family and to (hopefully) stay a week in UT! </div></div>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01518249977551009744noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1019359732866743084.post-51239764665550011732012-03-30T12:04:00.002-04:002012-03-30T16:37:31.339-04:00Great News... I have a MATCH!<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">I have a sibling donor match!! Zack is a match!!! He called me yesterday and told me- I had to ask him twice if he was teasing me, all the while thinking it was too soon to have results, but how could he tease me about something so serious?! He told me he was a PERFECT match, 6 for 6, and I burst into tears! Heavy, hiccuping tears! I think I scared Adam and my friend Amanda when they saw me reaching for a tissue with tears flowing down my face, but I quickly told them it was good news! It feels so wonderful to hear good news, when I'm so used to steeling myself for the bad! Adam and I celebrated with some bubbly (grape cider in our new "beer" glasses from Adam's trip to see Martha Stewart Live... but that's another post) and we <i>splurged</i> on Chipotle salads for dinner. What a good night!</span><br />
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<tr><td style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-1WNjWJmIXg8/T3XU8RARRII/AAAAAAAAB1Q/IPHm6NDb8Mk/s1600/Bassett+Kids+Old+Lagoon.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;"><img border="0" height="508" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-1WNjWJmIXg8/T3XU8RARRII/AAAAAAAAB1Q/IPHm6NDb8Mk/s640/Bassett+Kids+Old+Lagoon.jpg" width="640" /></a></td></tr>
<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">That's me and Zack on the left, Jake and Jesse on the right. Jake was a 3/6 match, and Jesse was a 5/6 match. I guess Zack is the best brother! :)</td></tr>
</tbody></table>I had started this post two weeks ago and it was titled "Bone Marrow Transplant Consultation." I couldn't get through writing it! I hated the consultation, there were too many contingencies- if this and if that and you want to be in this small percentage but not in this other small percentage... I hate the numbers! But at the same time, I HAVE to ask for them, I felt so blind going into the Auto transplant last time, not knowing until AFTER that I only had a 50% chance of success. Lost the coin toss on that one!<br />
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The good news about the consultation: I have a sibling match, which means I will be participating in a sibling clinical trial/study (extremely detailed explanation <a href="http://www.jtcancercenter.org/clinical-trial/clinical-trial-view/c04_c_0055" target="_blank"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: blue;">here</span></b></a>) with the main objective being trying to reduce problems with Graft Versus Host Disease (GVHD, where the recipient's body doesn't recognize the donor cells and starts attacking them) by giving me not only Zack's bone marrow cells, but also an infusion of his lymphocyte cells two weeks after transplant. Currently they have about 40 people doing the trial with good-ish results. So far, only 5 or 6 have relapsed, and 1 has died, but I was told the death happened to a person who was already in ICU and not doing very well at all. They want to do a "mini-transplant" which just means they use a reduced dose of chemo to kill off all of my cells so that I hopefully have fewer long-lasting side effects. <br />
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All things considered, this trial is very promising and one I desperately wanted to get excited about, but at the time we were told about it I didn't know if I even HAD a match, so I didn't dwell too long on the idea! But now we are REALLY excited, and happy to be here at Hackensack doing the transplant at such an amazing location! Adam and I tossed around the idea of going to Utah for a transplant, if in the end I didn't have a brother who was a match, mostly because survival rates go down so much without a perfect match. Here's one of those numbers I didn't like knowing until I found out about Zack: Odds of finding an <i>unrelated</i> <i>perfect</i> donor match: 42 in 1 <i>billion</i>! Crazy huh? And 2 years post transplant 85% of sibling recipients were still living, opposed to 45% of non-sibling donor recipients... I like 85% 100% better! :) <br />
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More numbers: The chance of a standard long-term (5 years) remission after a bone marrow transplant is 30%. Not even a coin toss on this one. Of course, that number depends on a lot of factors like my relative health at transplant time (considered good), level of cancer (will it be in remission when the transplant goes down?), and my relative youth is helpful too. There is a 7-10% chance of dying from transplant related complications, that number goes up considerably with a non-related donor. SO, I need to be in the small 30%, but not the smaller 10%, and hopefully not the largest 60%!! The 60% that relapse after transplant continue with different types of drugs and treatment to try to beat the cancer but obviously there isn't as much hope for an actual cure. <br />
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I've been very open with the doctors about considering treatment in Utah. They've been understanding but have pushed for staying here. I liked how my transplant doc, Dr. Donato, said I had everything going for me here (and she listed a few things for me, including being in some of the world's best treatment programs) with the only drawback being not having family close by to help me through the rough patches. So she asked if I had a strong support group here that I've made since living in NJ for two years... And that made up my mind. I am surrounded by some of the best friends and support group I could hope for. And she was right, I have the best treatment available to me, just 30 minutes away. Hackensack does over 300 transplants a year, about 1/2 of which are Allogeneic bone marrow transplants. They are one of the largest around- by comparison, LDS hospital in Utah has done only 600 transplants since their program started in 1978. Makes me happy to be here in such a prestigious area for health care with some of the world's best doctors and programs. I can't help but be grateful for the move across the country, even though it means I'm not close to family when I'd like nothing better as we go through all of this. <br />
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I am so happy Zack will be donating his immune system to me! It also means he will be able to come out here to NJ for around 3 weeks in May! If my scans in April come back clear and the new chemo has done it's job so that I hear that now infamous word, "remission," then we'll get going on the transplant in May. I may have to get one week of chemo before the BIG chemo of the transplant, not sure why it was they told me about the extra one we weren't expecting... I'll ask Adam, he will probably remember! But that's the plan. Now let's see how much of this follows accordingly!<br />
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">Zack and his girlfriend Katie</td></tr>
</tbody></table>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01518249977551009744noreply@blogger.com11tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1019359732866743084.post-15155404444638124052012-03-19T20:41:00.000-04:002012-03-19T20:41:49.386-04:00Cycle 2 UpdateIt's Monday after Adcetris treatment number 2 on Thursday. Treatment last week went perfectly, I had a great time with Taryl and felt great the evening of, just a little tired. I was hopeful I'd get through the weekend without many side effects! Didn't quite work out that way...<div><br />
</div><div>On Friday I was completely wiped out- slept until 9, took a nap, and went to bed about 9. I was pretty tired and very grateful for Taryl's help with the kids. Saturday was a nearly normal energy day- Taryl and I went to the World Trade Center and did a lot of walking in the city- but I did feel like I had some brain fog going on and crashed by about 8, though I didn't go to bed until later (hmmm... wonder if I should have listened to my dear mother and rested? :)</div><div><br />
</div><div>Sunday and today have been okay... it's hard for me to think of the right word- "okay" isn't quite right... I've been able to DO things- like go to church (though I left early), attend a BBQ in our back yard (though I was bothered by the smells), go to lunch in Hoboken (but I was queasy on the drive in). I just haven't been feeling right. Definite brain fog, fatigue, and a lot of almost queasiness. From chemo session one I did have some stomach upset for a day or two, and I've been really feeling it this time around. I'm surprised because I have a very strong stomach normally and hardly ever feel nauseated, even when I was pregnant or going through treatment from cancer the first or the second time. I read the list of side effects from the Adcetris pamphlet and just assumed I would experience the least amount since that's usually the case. So I have been "okay," and all things considered I'm still happy with the treatment!</div><div><br />
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